tiistai, 21. elokuu 2012

Tuesday the next one after depressing Monday

When I was a child I started to play e.g. soccer. Since that I have always been active especially different kind of "manly" sports.I have hated dancing, gymming etc.. But when I found my ex-hubby I stopped playing e.g. soccer... I didn´t do it because of the hubby but I had some medical limitations. At first everything was ok. We had so much fun together:laughing, joking, movie nights, walking, reading books etc..

When I started to play again about 1-2 years ago I realized what I had missed. Sports... Just before this I was depressed somehow.. Not "properly" but maybe kind of semi-depressed :) My life started again after first games. I was more cheerful, I had energy to do everything but one thing, keep my marriage in balance. Our problems started long before divorce decision. Maybe because I concentrated myself and he did the same thing. We stopped walking, talking, joking and movie nights. Or if we watched movies that was only because we didn´t want to face the truth. 

Everything came to my face in one dark evening. Let´s divorce. That was it, no screaming, no tears, anything... Just, let´s divorce. My first tears came after six months. Maybe, because I have always wanted to survive from anything. Then totally crash.... But anyway - now I have survived from that. Still I know that all of my colleagues and "friends" don´t know even that I have divorced. It is almost a year now but no, they don´t know.

How was the Tuesday? It was ok.... better than Monday :)  

maanantai, 20. elokuu 2012

My Life

I could start my new career as a blogger by introducing myself. I am a "girl" from Finland. I decided to start this new hobby so to say when I sat on my car :) I am not sure how high you rank these flows of my mind but I believe I do this for myself. My life is work work work in a big company. Okey I must say I have other hobbys too like shopping, travelling, football etc... But I haven´t actually decided my topics yet so maybe this is like something for everyone. 

And by the way... My english is more or less "unprofessional" but still maybe this is practice for me ;) Hopefully you find some energy to understand and forgive me :)

The most interesting part of my life is still mystery. I hope during this writing I could also find myself.. Is it even possible when I have decided not to show this blog to my friends...?

Ok, enough now... Let´s continue tomorrow or day after. Maybe I manage to find some nice pics too. Have a wonderful monday !! angel